A Family Treasure
My grandfather was holding this Qur'an with him when he went back into the forest to search for my uncle. To many people, this might just be a historical artifact or a connection to a place, but to me it serves as my roots and it defines who I am as a person. Last year was one of the big moments where I felt this resonate with me deeply. My father, for example, woke up from a dream on his birthday where he saw his brother Gemma. My family still says that I look like him and resemble him. Gemma was 17 at the time of his death, but my father had this vivid dream of him. When my father woke up, I had never seen him cry before. I had never seen him shed a tear. Not because he didn't have the capability to, but because he was strong enough to hide that from me. But that day, he couldn't hide it anymore. He was telling me how much he misses his brother, and he told me the stories of how he lost him.
The Flight Through the Forest
The story goes that during the war, my father was 14 or 15 years old, and his brother Gemma was 16. They had to flee through the forest to reach safety in Tuzla. It was my father, my great grandfather, my grandfather, and my uncle Gemma making the journey together. My father and my grandfather made it through the forest safely, but my uncle Gemma, who was only 16, was separated from them and did not come through with the rest of the family.
The Final Sacrifice
When my grandfather realized that his son had not made it through the forest with them, he made a decision that would define the end of his life. He said that he would not go on and live his life if his son did not come with him. So my grandfather left his Qur'an with my grandmother or my father—I believe it was one of them—and he went back into the forest to find my uncle. He was never seen after that. His body is buried in Srebrenica next to his son. This Qur'an is the only thing I have left from my grandfather.